This past week I celebrated my 29th birthday. There is something about birthdays that always makes me feel nostalgic. As my 20's are coming to an end I've been thinking about the last decade and how much my life has changed...how much I have changed.
10 years ago I was just 19. I was a waitress at a little coffee shop, and I didn't even drink coffee. I thought I was an adult, but now I know that I really had no idea what that meant.
I had so much freedom. I would play my guitar every day. I had time to paint and journal and be creative. I could come and go as I pleased.
But, I also remember that time feeling very lost. I was in a place of waiting. I had all these dreams of "someday...", but I don't think I knew what I had right in front of me.
Then one day my high school sweetheart took me to our special place. There in that beautiful, white pine forest he asked me to be his wife. Of course I said yes, and from that moment my life changed. It was no longer about me, but about us.
The next 6 months were a whirlwind of wedding plans and excitement. We had always planned on getting married young, and I have never regretted that decision, but I wonder if I really understood what I had at 19.
I don't miss those days. I know I am where I meant to be now, and I can't imagine my life any other way. But if I could go back and speak to the me at 19, there is so much I could say.
I wasn't prepared to be a wife. I thought I was, I was in love, how hard could it be?
But I guess it's all part of the journey. I wouldn't have listened then, I needed to learn things for myself.
I am so thankful that God took hold of my heart and changed me from the inside. I'm sure in 10 years I will look back on this 29 year old and have so much more to say.