My first day home alone with all 6 children felt like a bit of a disaster. Everyone needed me and there was never enough.
I wasn't trying to do it all, but with even the bare necessities of life I felt like a failure. I hadn't showered or eaten. I yelled...a lot. I even burned the kids' lunch while I was nursing the baby.
Then my husband walked in the door and I burst into tears. He had stopped by during his lunch break to check on me and just seeing him brought so much relief, but I was also embarrassed. I felt like I should be better at this.
Maybe I cried out of exhaustion or my hormones, or maybe it was the fear that maybe I just can't do this.
The next day my mother came over to help me. She brought me a list titled "10 Real Helps for Really Busy Moms" by Ann Voskamp of One Thousand Gifts.
I placed it on my refrigerator and have been reading it throughout my busy, overwhelming days. They are all encouraging, but here are two of my favorite quotes:
Homemaking is about making a home, not about making perfection. A perfect home is an authentic, creative, animated space where Peace and Christ and Beauty are embraced. (Perfect does not equate to immaculate.)
Believe it: I have all I need for today. The needs of our day are great, but God is greater and we call him Providence because we believe: He always provides. (And when God provides, He should be praised, and if God always provides, shouldn't praise always be on the lips?)
My days are still crazy. The laundry is piled up and there are dirty dishes in my sink. But I'm taking it slow. There is a sweet baby in my arms and love and laughter in our home. This moment won't last forever and soon life will feel normal again...our new normal.